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I've been going to school to get my CDL since January, supposed to finish up June 22nd.. Turns out that after talking to 98 trucking companies, not ONE has offered me a chance to work for them once I finish, due to either my felony that's 3 years old or a speeding ticket, that will be three years old come July. I've been praying hard to find a job, recently I switched that to, "God whatever it is you want me to do, just show me and I'll do it, I don't care what it is anymore I just need benefits NOW so I don't get really sick." I can't afford to wait anymore. Now once I finish this school in June I get hit with a $9000 bill. I met with the director of career services last wed. and she said if I called enough places on the list she gave me and still had no luck then we can get me out of the school and I won't have to pay anything. I have been commuting 350 miles each weekend and spending about 25 hours of my time over sat-sun going there since January, so while it may be nice to not worry about the bill I still have invested A LOT going down there. I don't know what to do, I don't want to finish up and have to pay $9000 back and STILL not have a job (I haven't had a job since last summer because no one will hire me I'm assuming due to my felony) but I don't want to think that maybe I should have stayed and finished because maybe one company somewhere out there would hire me. I also didn't even bother going today because I am such a mess over this.