I'm not depressed by any means... I actually (this is really off subject) got up to 154 at the gym last week
I've never been higher than 150 natural. When I started gas I got up to 180, met liz, broke up many times, went to 130, now Im up almost 25 pounds, I could give two shits about women anymore... I was trying to say that I don't think I'll be happy with anyone, I like it being just me sometimes.. Yeah I miss her sometimes and I always will, I'd probably take her back if I knew things would be different, but I'm too happy right now to worry about it... Plus I finish school hopefully in a month and I'll get my ass on the road and see the country if I decide to go OTR for more money, hell maybe team driving, those guys can pull an easy 100k from what I've seen