Well I work with this chick, have known her for 6 months, and we hit it off big time but just started taking things a step further. The thing is, I'm actually extremely comforatable around her, but when we get sexual I begin to question my performance, which before all this was porn-star level, then I get nervous. I know these things are normal in the beginning, but I personally feel that my anxiety is coming from the fact that I mindfuck myself, in this case with the idea in mind that "The tren killed your drive, you might not be able to get it up." Well that and the fact that both of us are engaging in an affair on our significant others which does bother my conscience...I know, I know....but you would have to hear the whole story to understand why we are doing this. Anyways, if I get my drive back, I know these thoughts will go away, for the most part that is. Plus not only will the HCG, Proviron, and Dostinex give me the tools to do my thing, I am sure that it will also have a placebo effect on me. Man, I have never anticipated getting my orders more than I am now lol, and when I get them....lets the games begin!
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