give me lust

[Puddles]

I think the lust goes out of most marriages when the partners take eachother for granted. This can be repaired but most are too lazy/selfish to do it. It's much easier to keep it going from the beginning than to rekindle it after it's been lost.

I lust my husband still, even after over 20 yrs. When I think of a guy who turns me on, he is the first one to come to mind. When I want to make love, he's also the first one in my head. He is my favorite lover.

I never had a man break my heart but I had a woman who did. Having experienced this I feel I could never get that close to another woman again. This is probably a good thing since my heart really belongs to my husband. It was like a slap in the face to wake up when this happened. Yes, you can lust others but to truly love another besides your spouse...I don't think that is how we were meant to be.

My father was married to another woman who cheated on him when he was in the Korean War. Upon his return he met my mother with whom he had a lifelong affair and I was a result. He never divorced his wife and he lead a double life for many, many years. It wasn't until he was old and sick that he fully moved in with my mother. He loved two women, he had two families, but he was not truly happy because he had to deal with deceipt and lies to both sides most of the time. He confided in me more than anyone else and he called me his best friend. I'm glad he let me see things through his eyes and didn't hide much from me like he did to the others in our family.

Now that he's gone his wife has gone off the deep end and had a nervours breakdown, his other daughter however accepted what happened and has welcomed me into her heart as her sister. Her brother, who always knew about me, is OK with it, but he doesn't have the warmth and kindness that my sister and I share, he's self centered but not mean. My sister is a lesbian and my brother worked in the adult industry behind the camera. We're all like my dad in his lust for women. LOL

When dad died us kids were together for the first time as adults and we talked until dawn 2 nights in a row, first night over a bottle of Tequilla, next night over a bottle of vodka. Dad used to own an Irish pub (it was his father's before he retired) where we all worked when we were younger, so this drunken clearing of the minds was kind of a tribute to him which somehow made us all close.

Strange thing is now I see my sister following our father's footsteps. She's been in a relationship with a woman for nearly 20 yrs. but she has been cheating on her lately. We talked about it some this weekend again. I agree that if she's not happy with her g/f she should find the right person for her elsewhere but she really needs to end this relationship first so she can persue another without guilt. She fell in love with another woman who broke her heart a few months ago so she's not quite ready to start another relationship.

This love/lust issue is pretty complex.

Puddles you're a very very lucky woman.........to have both love and lust

*smile*